It's kind of sad that I can hold an act so good. How good I can hide my emotions bewilders me at times.

I don't need anyone.

That way I won't feel vulnerable, hurt, and dissapointed in all you.

The audacity some have.

You're bold all right. You have the nerve to treat me the same as you have seven years ago. I've always been a good friend to you, but to you I've always been the second choice. The friend that you'll call up whenever your number one's not around. And the only time we ever hear from each other is when the timings good for you. The audacity to take advantage of my friendship blows my mind.
After all the excitement I had for you coming down here after three years and for you to blow me off till the night before you leave makes me reconsider our entire friendship. I mean really, I got to see you for a good four minutes. I've gone through this type of treatment before and it resulted to me burning bridges. Consider ours cindered..

NNNNNOOOOOOO.
Everyone in Hollywood either has that Alex. Wang bag. I Die..

Definitely the answer to my prayers!

(My infamous "iJunk")

http://www.cnn.com/2010/TECH/mobile/06/23/iphone.old.phone/index.html?hpt=Sbin

Currently:

Vanitys, David Bowie cheeks, bright saturated lips, gluttony, film > digital, earl grey, wine under grape trees, christmas lights, infatuation, intelligence, secure individuals.

Prettttttyyy much it.

B.O.A INSPIRED

http://cgi.ebay.com/rock-celebrity-Platform-Ankle-buckle-lace-up-urban-Boot-/270573650239?cmd=ViewItem&pt=US_Women_s_Shoes&hash=item3eff72413f



LITERALLY DROOLING.

St00pid gurl

I'm loooooving bold lips! The other day I tried things I wish I could, but can't pull off (red lips + winged eye liner). Red lipstick doesn't match no matter how bad I'd like it too, and my asian eyes prevent anyone from seeing this type of look. Hahhahaha I look so stupid.

Being a Japanese American, I'm raised by Japanese nationals with their culture and customs. It never registered to me how different cultures are (mainly because I never cared). But lately I've been feeling very traditional. When it comes to people, I'd have to say I prefer the oriental customs more. And when it comes to boys, I find full blown American boys a little ignorant to be in a relationship with. Not all, most definitely. But many of those I've known.

 

xoxo, s/m

Why'd you have to do that for?

Your not even here anymore.
How are you going to fix this mess?

I never feel like this..

From today, at our field trip. I would never have the balls to post this on social networking (hence the image size), but I actually love this picture. It depicts exactly what our friendship is like.

Going to take off my face! Night, creepers ~

Feeling a little liberated

I haven't been online in two days, I know it doesn't sound long at all. But the fact that I achieved it through self-control feels amazing. + minimal make up. Lately, I've been comfortable with myself. No not confident, but more in peace with myself.

For the past two nights, I've gotten more sense of what my dad did for more than half his life before he was diagnosed with cancer. And tonight at our closest family friends house, I've heard more storys about him growing up than I would've though. Being that he is the quiet man ever. Does it make sense to say that I've been learning more about myself through my family history? Hm.

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Discovered my favorite lipstick pairing today. Chanel Rouge Hydrabase (44)  under Chanels Rouge Allure (Violent diamond). Now, on the search for the perfect fuchsia lip!

I don't know about you, but when I have a friend I'll always give them the benefit of the doubt. I believe that you'll be a good friend who keeps the same morals and virtues to heart. But that's never how it is, and I can't help but contradict my beliefs.

If you've been true to be I assure you with my life I will never betray you in any sort. I will not talk shit about you, I will not manipulate you, I will not lie to you. I don't see the point of any of that when you call someone your friend.

Heartbreaker ft. Flo rida

Ew really?.......

The EPITOME of nostalgia

Raiding all them on youtube. It's like a flood of old memories coming back.

Updated obsessions:

Big hair, bright neon colors, lavender lips, rouged cheeks, shoe inspired heels, ridiculous oversized bows, cute but slightly tacky things, photoshoot worthy places, lashes, organic beauty, wedges over heels, nude or salmon nails over black or white, skinny, youtube gurus, tattoos, leggings everyday, oversized, school girl uniforms, 90's pop hits, 90's children, everything about the 90's, rosemary bread, protein shakes, Demi Lovato, designer inspiration for less, & http://18thcenturyhistory.com/

The H-Logic

As if I didn't love her enough. I'm loving this, def. worth the long awaited comeback.

To: Me

I've been contemplating whether to even write in this at all. I post things as a way to kind of accept things and move on. I have a million and ten different things running through my head every day and it's nice to be able to be able to leave it somewhere without pushing it out of my life completely.
For others, I feel, like it's simply an web address where you vent your problems and hopefully people can understand or feel for you for a split millisecond.

I'm coming back to this blog. Instead of tumblr where pretty photos replace actual blogging and followers are mostly class mates. This is my online rule book. No, more like a yearbook. An accumulation of thoughts, realizations, and virtues that I can look back on.

To who it may concern:

I don't hate you. I don't hate anyone. Don't feel special; it means I don't care enough to have my energy focused on you.

(:

'Wow, Monica you've really changed in the past one a half years'.

It's not because I've turned 'antisocial', it's because that there comes a point in your life where partying, drinking, or clubbing every weekend doesn't cut it for you anymore. Because you've done that way too many times, and it's gotten, deathly boring.

I do like to do things that are worth the time and productive most times. And I like surrounding myself with people I genuinely feel comfortable with. Not so much hanging with generic individuals, or  the ones that live to impress others.

I don't consider it a bad thing unlike most people. In my opinion it just means that I'm comfortable with myself and my life to where I don't need to party or be with a large group to have a good time.

An introvert or an extrovert, which one are you?

^ For you Ryan.

I miss this shit.